Deepening Your Medicine

April 16, 2019

Last week I wrote about discovering your medicine, identifying what it is that you bring into this world. Your special gift that only you can gift to your little pocket of your community, or even the to the rest of the world.

And that blog was really a precursor to what I’ve really been thinking about and feeling into for some time.

To deepen into your medicine. To sit with it and let it grow deep roots in you.

Let me explain what I mean.

So much of the time, our culture is all about the new. The new course. The new treatment technique. The new modality. (Any other practitioners feel like this sometimes?)

Or on a different note, maybe it’s the new style of clothes, the new way of eating aka diet, the new spiritual practice. Whatever!

It’s all new. All the time. And especially as we begin to see signs of spring here in the mountains, there’s this upwards welling of energy to really start those new projects or to begin that new training.

While all of that is a possibility. I want to float the idea out there to pause. And to reflect back. What else have I already enjoyed that I’ve maybe left in the dust to look at the “new________”? What is another project that I’ve already started, that perhaps still wants to be completed?

Jumping in and embracing the new isn’t a “bad” thing. However. I feel that we are often missing out of the integration of the experiences we’ve had before we jump right into the next thing.

For all you practitioners out there, hands up who’s taken an amazing training, gotten super inspired, loved every minute of it….and then by the next day you’re caught up in the busy-ness of life and though you keep meaning to get back to review what you’ve learned…it gets lost in the fray.

And then a few weeks or months later, a new course, and new opportunity to learn shows up, and you jump at it. Feeling that twinge of guilt that you still haven’t really soaked in all there was to learn about from the last course.

I can say all that because I’ve totally done that. It’s very inspiring to be learning and adding to your available tools to help your clients…it’s a wonderful feeling to notice that possibility (and if you don’t see clients, insert the new thing you tend to gravitate towards here).

The last year of my Biodynamic Craniosacral Training, I was already looking at crystal healing training, shamanic apprenticeships (I have a lot more thoughts on that now….which don’t need to be shared here), specialized chronic pain trainings in the States, living anatomy workshops…

Truly the list is endless.

Even then I heard this little whisper to just focus on the areas that call me the most. That have the most energy behind them and that resonate with me deeply. And I have been slowly doing more and more of this, focusing on the areas I really feel drawn too.

Because really. I want to know my medicine. I want to be taught by it. I want to sit in it. To allow the foundation of it to hold me strong. I want to revisit and relearn and re-experience what I’ve learned before in new ways. Like the spiral, ever deepening.

I want to give time and space for all this learning to sink into my bones. To allow it to meld within me and give its voice at an opportune moment in a session. And if I’m forever chasing a new course, I’m not giving myself the space I deserve, that I need.

So while there’s some wonderful trainings I could pursue, over the past year especially, I’ve felt a distinct lack of pull towards them. I’ve felt a stronger and stronger sense that I need to absorb what I’ve already learned even more. And to deepen what is already available to me.

To go beyond the surface. To come up with new questions to ask and to synthesize what speaks to me into a tapestry of knowledge and wisdom.

This weekend I sat down and wrote what I’m passionate about. Not what I know is popular or what I can create a training out of or anything like that. I wanted to tune into my heart space and to feel the magnetic pull of what I’m best suited to give to the people of my new community.

Perhaps its the move, and the establishing of roots here. But I really want to take things slow instead of jumping on every opportunity. I’m trusting my intuition more to show me the way and my Helping Spirits to guide me.

So I want to reflect this back to you. What have you chased? And I don’t say that in a bad way…I use the word to convey the energy of movement after something.

Like me, was it another style of treatment to add to your repertiore? Or a new exercise regime? Or a new way of eating? Is this helping you? It might be!!! Don’t stop if you feel called to keep going. I also believe there’s a time in life to try out a bunch of different things before you can really know what is yours to work with at that time.

But, if you feel like you’re a train spinning its wheels on the track…with more books on the shelfs and certificates on the wall, but not the learning in your brain and in your bones…then perhaps what you needed wasn’t even in those courses. Perhaps it’s already inside of you.

So as we are about to launch into spring, I invite you to pause. To feel into your intuition and into your heartspace, to see what is really calling you. What dreams, what projects, what new opportunities are you about to jump at. Are they truly what you want? In the pursuit of new, and the fullness of our days, are they helping you to bring your unique medicine to the world?

If they are, that is absolutely wonderful! If they aren’t and you’re already feeling tired before you’ve even begun, perhaps, give yourself some space to see if it’s where you want your time and energy to go into.

And so I’ll leave you with some words to ponder, a message from my Helping Spirits, and just see where it takes you…

“The endless consumption of knowledge does not equal wisdom. Sitting in the spaciousness of what you have learned, and allowing that to infuse your being, that is when you begin to walk towards your wisdom. And the wisdom of those before you.”